Waiting for the Spring~

The night has leached out all my strength
I finally drift off on the ocean of my tears
Only to wake again as the lack of your body
Crashes into me with the coolness of the night...

I shiver as the marrow in my bones turns to ice
And desperately chase the sleep that eludes me.
Can't drown in this sadness- I need to be strong.
I am torn between wanting you and the need to move on.

There's nothing that will numb my aching heart,
No choice but to feel this to the full, the tears spill out.
Oh this is my time of weakness- alone and cold
Wishing to be beyond longing for your warmth-

I guess this is the winter in the season of my grief,
The night stole my strength and punctured my heart
In this deep of darkness, hope is far out of sight...
But the dawn will arrive before forever comes to pass.

Before I know it, the light will reveal new blossoms
Everywhere I'll smell the fragrance of blooming Hope
And Peace will flow through me like a bubbling brook
Once again I'll see the healing Light and hurt no more.

In Between

In between sleep and awake,

You and I have always been.

In the space between dimensions,

You and I are connected within.

In reality I don't know you

I've never looked into your eyes-

But in a different world and time

At the Gate of Dreams it lies-

Our connection suspeneded there

Right next to the Fountain of Youth

Treasure beautiful and indeed rare-

Who knew?

I never would have guessed

That the sea I've never seen

Would be right here in rest

Where every breeze starts-

Where there's healing for broken hearts-

In the very center of all-- In between.

Release

Weight lifted off my face,
I can smile, I can truly smile...
Shackles broken, not a trace-
I can dance once again...

Out of the water I can breathe
I am free to breathe again
Eyes open, blinking against the light,
Free to move and make things right...

Broken but healing, there is hope-
There is always hope.

Seeds Sown.

Seeds that fall on shallow ground
Spring up with joy-
and quickly whither down
Because they have no roots.

That was our love.

To make fertile ground,
It takes time and much work
The soil isn't ready
Until it's nutrient rich.

What's sad is we could have had that.
We decided to skip those steps
And jump in as we were,
Based on potential, which we had.

Our love sprung up joyful and intense,
Only to die down and whither into-
Into what it became...
We had no roots built up.

Everyone was surprised
How we died down-
It was too soon to love,
and too soon to whither.

Sad and broken now,
No hope of revival.
We are a couple no more.

If Only We Were Perfect for Each Other...

If I had been perfect for you and you for me,

This is how I imagine it would be:



You:

You would treat me like a queen.

Without being asked you'd help me clean,

You'd really listen when I speak,

And hear me out on what I think.

You would support the decisions I make,

When it comes to my kids and the steps I take.

You'd make efforts to ensure I feel free,

To do what I want and feel I need.

You'd trust me to be yours alone,

And know I'd never wreck our home.

You'd love me for who I am each day,

And you'd be positive in what you say.



Me:

I would treat you like a king,

Come home from work, cook and clean,

Smile and never ever be mad,

Put off frustration- just be glad.

I'd do everything you'd tell me to,

Exacty the way you asked me to.

I'd encourage you to go and be free,

Do what you enjoy and feel you need...

I'd trust you to tell the truth to me,

And know you only act faithfully.

I'd understand everything you'd say,

And always respect you for feeling that way.

(Sob)..........................................(Sob)

If only, if only things................ had been different

If we were perfect for each...........other, we would get along,

We'd hold one another......and together be strong-

We didn't do that and now......it's all gone wrong.

No longer to each......other do we belong.

All thats left is......sorrow, regret

And this.....broken

Hea...rt.

We're doing the right thing...

You're here but you're gone...
You're working on moving on.


We're both hurting in Limbo
Waiting for the time you go.

My heart reaches for you,
My body too...

But I try to hold back
So you don't feel attacked.

Love isn't enough to keep us together,
It is the core but too much of the other,

You say it's for the best and I know it is,
But it's your skin and your touch I'll miss.

I still love you and my heart is broken,
As is yours- so you've spoken...

Our hands both naked without a ring,
But we're doing the right thing...

It's for the best and it's the right thing...
Though it hurts to my very soul.

Weighed down

My heart is drenched in sadness
Sadness so thick it's hard to beat.
The confusion and fear of mistakes
Weigh down so heavy on me.
I don't want to die but I wish for sleep
Deep peaceful sleep for as long as it takes
To heal from all this heartache.

The ocean dried up

My heart is cracked and broken
Like a shell upon the sand
I feel the life has left me
Alone and dry on the land
My tears fall one by one-
All my hopes are dried up and gone.