Sacred

It’s said God is Love, so I understand,


Across my skin; your caressing hand,

Cuddled up, warm, together naked,

An act of worship; our love is sacred.



A manifestation of the Great Divine,

The magnet that pulls at you and I,

The light reflecting off the moon,

The Love, love between me and you.

Thinking of You

Thoughts of you blow through my mind,
Like notes of a lovely song,

The fragrant breeze envelops me,
I can't help but sing along.

Anticipating your warm embrace,
My spirit is drawn anew,

By the light of the stars you beckon me,
Down the moonlit path to you.

Natives

Customs and ways I don’t understand,

Strange creatures in a stranger land,

Build each other up- they do this first-

Then sit back to watch the bubble burst.

Then pick up the pieces from the muddy rain,

And start the process over again… (???)

Marcas

The black sheep is different, so he is shunned,
But not for anything wrong he had done,
All he had shown was love and affection,
But for them, he was too far from perfection.

Those snobby llamas, they hold their heads high,
Looking down on him with only harsh eyes,
They step on each other and claim to be wronged,
As the shunned one just stands by all along.

One of the pack fell down and got stuck,
They congregated; disparaging the luck,
And they walked away to continue as before,
Helping their own was too much of a chore.

Ah the outcast gathered his strength, enraged,
The holier-than-thou were otherwise engaged,
The only one in the field who helped the fallen,
Yet condemnation’s what those rats are calling.

Who has more honor? The shunners or shunned?
We can tell by observing what each one has done.
The expression is common, as we all have heard:
Actions, ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS!!!!

On Edge

Perception is off, I don’t know what to think,
Inching up to the edge, is it really that deep?

Staring down into the darkness captivated,
Was I justified in all I loved and hated?

Confusion falls over me drop by drop
I wish these whirling thought would stop.

Wish I could stop wondering and know,
If I should stay or jump or turn and go.

Moving Forward

I catch a whiff as I happen by-
Sadness envelops me like the night,
The fragrance invites and pulls me in,
But I realize that those hopes went dim.
Wilted and no longer able to grow,
Despite the beckoning, I still must go.

Getting Through

The weight of the world rests on my back

Like the dead carcass of an unrealized dream.

My shoulders hurt from the burden of it all

But I can’t put it down, I can’t put it down.



I’m trudging through the desert of pain

Under burning disappointment by day,

And bone-chilling confusion by night.

On the other side is my garden of peace,

Where I will lay my burden down,

Sit under the weeping willow,

And cry until I am cleansed.

All that Remains...

My stomach is turning, eyes are burning, I sit here paralyzed,
My heart is yearning, but am I learning?  What's left to realize?


I am forgiving and never unkind, I am a woman of worth.
So why then?  Why every time, do I seem to be under a curse?

It's a mystery; it's a cruel reality, one I always hope will change,
Each time, a few months in, and the heart break is all that remains.

Betrayed by hope again... The heart break is all that remains...
Optimism be damned... The heart break is all that remains.

Two Moons ago, yes two moons past,

The warmth and light were unsurpassed.

The joy of Spring- fragrant new start,

Brought out the sunshine of my heart.

Spring leads to summer- warm and bright,

But somehow the clouds cover the light.

The rain comes down, and it won’t stop,

And I’m dying a little with each drop.

The warmth melts away with each drop.

Drowning in sorrow with each drop.

Losing faith with each drop,

Wish it would stop,

Drop, drop,

Drop.

Français poème pour mon copain

Tout mon corps me demande:

 "Où est le tressaillement que une fois a été?"

Il n'y a aucune chaleur comme la passion:

la passion pour compléter la douceur de l'amour.

N'attendez pas trop longtemps, mon amour,

je suis de plus en plus froid.

Et je suis tellement faim pour vous.

Votre fidèle amant,

MMM

I have walked this path before,
since I was a seven-year-old child.
I knew how to walk this road,
Weather bad, or weather mild.

I've held my broken heart fast,
I have walked along so alone;
I have learned the steps myself,
And what to expect as I've grown.

I know every hill, every turn,
As I trod along the familiar way,
What used to be... dropped off-
I no longer know what to say.


A lifelong trip; in reality, a nightmare.
Since I can remember, death suspended,
Another false alarm? another threat?
or will it end, will it really be ended?

What happened to the Land of Hope?

My tears pound on the dusty river bed;

The moisture just disappears like smoke.

All the hopes and dreams of this land,

Dried up for the lacking actions of a man.

How do you water the dessert?

How do you revive the life that was?

You don’t. You can’t, you don’t.

Try to force it to grow, but it won’t.

Fertility is gone, for lack of sustenance,

A flood would not bring back existence.

The river dried up, it’s now a grave,

Nothing left to do, it can’t be saved.

Ah life goes on and we all adjust;

Prickly cactuses replace the trees,

Vultures instead of chirping birds,

Searing wind replaced the herds.

It’s now the lonely Land of Bitter and Jaded.



How do you continue to feed the mouth that bites?
How do you love in the face of hate?
How do you continue against exhaustion?
How do you soothe the one inflicting such pain?

I can't give up, I won't give up, though it's so tempting.
I won't give up, I refuse to give in, I'm hanging by a thread...
Oh it hurts, it hurts so bad, my hands slip with my tears,
Oh the tears roll down my face but I HAVE RESOLVE 

I will hold on while they kick me,  again and again.
I won't defend, Oh God help me hold on!!  I won't let go,
I can't I can't I can't let go like generations before,
The promise of ease looms over me and I want to lash out,

Return the kicks, viscously bite back, Oh what do I feel?
Intense love, mixed with pain, love binds me in place,
As my heart is ripped out of my chest with a rusty knife.



I tried to take care, at the bottom of the sea,
I had to find air, it was killing me,
My heart is ripped out of my chest,
with a knife that is full of rust, no rest.

I tried but how do you love in the face of hate?
How do you feed the mouth that bites?
Over and over, Begging for affirmation and love?

They BITE. They lash out in their own pain.
They hurt and tear in effort to ease the burn
Oh God help me I am trying to hope.

Fire

Stocking the fire from my side and yours,
We had a good thing going.
You threw more and more on,
from the skies our flame was showing

I threw more onto our fire,
Delighted by the heat and light,
Then you started putting less in,
And I realized it was a cold dark night.

I start to shiver; I don't like the cold,
I have so much to add to the fire. 
I want to be with you as we grow old,
But I need your heat and desire.

3/14

J:

On sweet music, such as was made last night,

Fires my passions and gives love to ignite.

Your supple beautiful form in my arms,

Banishes the greys and keeps us from harms.

Your impassioned lips upon my mine,

move softly and speak volumes in mime.

Your words are like a gentle breeze.

carrying cool wind through hot trees.

With your supportive hand in my hand,

we set out together across this land.

On an adventure without any end,

let us to old wounds amend.

 

 

M:

I walked around dry as a bone

Till you called and started the rain,

I’m now drowning in my love for you

Yet beautifully sustained.

Thank you, my love.

 

3/12

3-12

M:

We’re stopped in time as the world goes its pace,

Standing in the center of it all; embraced.

The world disappears into hazel eternity,

All ceases to exist; except your gaze on me.

Despite all the stress and pain in the world,

The knots in my shoulders are unfurled,

Knowing that no one can do me harm,

There’s no safer place than here in your arms.

J:

Moment to moment past is gone,

Eternal now holds all the world.

Gazes deep and tender swathe.

Shelter us in each other’s grace.

3-7 I Want to be the One:: Honeyed Words

3-7

M:

Soft music playing in the background,

Lovely scents all around,

I want to be the one you come to,

When you need to rest and renew.

Rock music setting the beat,

To the adventures that we seek,

I want to be the one you are next to,

When you experience something new.

Music playing  in sets around us,

The look in your eye makes me blush,

I want to be the one you lead,

When we go out and you dance with me.

Mesmerized by the rhythm of the shore,

Romance dripping from your pores,

I want to be the one you pull close,

When we vacation to the coast.

Pandora plays to the daily grind,

Waking up task-inclined,

I want to be the one to smile,

And hold you each day for a while.

J:

Honeyed Words

 

You are so entirely wonderful,

I wonder at my amazing luck.

Attentions lavished bountiful,

pulls me out of deep blue funk.

Contentment finds me now,

with you lying in my embrace.

yin to yang of duality and tao,

sense of you sweet to taste.

 

Thoughts drift not beyond the moment

The world at my fingertips.

Thankful for what I've been sent,

as the honey so sweetly drips.

Weather

I know the dark clouds are there,
Threatening to pelt us with rain,
Competing with the sunshine,
Threatening to ruin our parade,

Your face lights up at my smile
The sunrays spill to the ground,
I see the reflection in your eyes.
With such fantastic beauty.

The world lights up with your kiss
You take me into your arms,
Sweet shelter in one another,
The clouds disappear from sight.
       

Doubts

The tick-tick-tick signals we are going up

Oh excited anticipation makes the heart jump

Screaming in joy and exhilaration at the speed

We fly, yanked and turned, nature exceeded,

Twisted, down, up, through, upside down,

And finally, the ride again comes around.

It slows to a stop and then it is done.

Why do I allow my heart on these rides?

Is the roller-coaster stopping in the middle?

Will I be left upside down? Will it start again?

Or will I have to pick my heart off the ground??

No, I am going to ride this out to the end.

Oasis

Trudging through the dessert- so parched

Looking for the oasis of your arms.

Clear, cool water, wash all over me,

Nourishing kisses, sweet as honey.

Ah my love, where did you go?

You’ve trudged a dessert of your own.

Somehow somewhere around high noon,

We connected on a vast sandy dune.

Just in time, we found each other,

We’ll be an Oasis for one another

Come on now, let’s get out of the sun,

Hand in hand, we've just begun.

-MM 2/29/12

J:

omg M,

 

is it unmanly of me to melt?

words touching deep inside of me,

leaving me more than a little tingly.

Remembering things I haven't felt.

 You touch upon my soul!

Awaken the me long buried,

this heart has been so harried.

You wipe away the costly toll.

Dance

The shadow of a familiar song

Plays at the corner of my memory.

A soundtrack of  moments together

I can almost hear it-

Dance with me, to the rhythm Love-

Sear me with your eyes again

I don’t even want to resist,

Delve into my spirit-

Twirl my heart as we cut a new path

Picking up what could have been,

Dancing toward what may be,

The fire once again lit-

Never No More

You cast your spell on me once more

I am like a moth to a flame.

Fear wells up inside my Self

But still I willingly came.

What is this magic that binds me so

You handsome Sorcerer of old?

My heart is paralyzed in fear

That you’ll force my heart to go  cold.

In the darkened corner of my mind

I remember the pain of loss-

I have the scars but also hope:

That the Never will not touch us.

Shadow of a Familiar Song

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The shadow of a familiar song

Plays at the corner of my memory.

A soundtrack of  moments together

I can almost hear it-

Dance with me, to the rhythm Love-

Sear me with your eyes again

I don’t even want to resist,

Delve into my spirit-

Twirl my heart as we cut a new path

Picking up what could have been,

Dancing toward what may be,

The fire once again lit-