LET GO!

Let go, evil heart, let loose, let go!
It was wrong all along, and you knew it, let go.
You don't want your dark side brought out, LET GO.
Stop thinking of him, his eyes and his smile,
Let me have peace for a little while.
Let go of this man who's attached to another.
See him not as handsome, but as a brother.
Let go! Let go of how he made you feel,
Let go of how he made this heart reel, LET GO!!!
Let go of his movements, don't let him thrill,
Let go of your desire for him, let go.

I'm not holding on, but I can't let go.
I'm stuck, too attached, wish I could let go.
I don't want to think of him anymore, no.
But how do I get away- to let go?
Every time I see red, I think of this man,
I think of his spirit, and the connection we had.
I think of his eyes, piercing through my soul.
How can I let go? How can I let go?
I think of his heart, it doesn't belong to me.
I think of his work, and how much he taught me,
I dream of his scent, every detail so clear.
I see how he saw me when I see a mirror.

How do I let go? How can I break free?
He got to my spirit, and forever will be
A thorn in my heart, and what makes it break,
I'm afraid that my heart will forever still ache,
How do you let go of what's inside of you?
How do you close up Pandora's box?
How do you un-break the opened locks?
He was so hot that he burned me up,
Now I'm still burning and don't know how to stop,
Scarred for life, and I still don't know...
How to let go. How to just let go.

Suspended

It's cold under water, everything's blue
I can't breathe, don't know what to do,
I can kick with my feet, I can hold my head high
But I can't breathe and I think I might die.
What happened to the land where we spent the days?
Where is the love and the warm sun rays?
Where did it all go and how'd I get here?
I'm dying, or I might be dead already, I fear.
Because I'm under water, and I can't breathe!
In this sadness, hurt and anger I seethe.
All this water here is from my tears,
built up and collected over all these years...
Will I live or die, does the end draw neigh?
I don't know. This is where I'm suspended.
Suspended in pure uncertainty.
He asks if I need him to leave me.
I clutch him, "No, don't go",
I realize I still care as my tears start to flow.
Now they won't stop, and I cannot sleep
I cannot tread the water this deep...
Panic overtakes me with the white wash waves
Passion ran away with the love I crave...
Passion and love, please return to me,
Come save me from this raging sea
Rocks and wind and driving rain
Make me wonder if I've gone insane...
Perhaps I shall fly away like a bird,
Or be rooted deep down like an anchor...
I don't know... I don't know... this is all I know...
honestly, I DON'T WANT TO KNOW, the answer is too scary.