When do you know?

When do you know if it's time to stay or go?
When does it become final that these things must end?
He tears me down and burns me up-
Then treats me nice again.

So when it's bad, it's really bad,
But it's so nice when it's good.
Should have been years ago, how would I know?
I have never understood-
That all of this was so wrong, should have listened to my friends
Who said to let go, let go! But I did't want to see it end.
Now I'm so cold and broke, I've given all- it's gone.
Everything's fine though, all is well-
Let's play pretend and continue on.
When it gets overwhelming, he'll spout again...
I know he will, it happens too often
From the start he has done this
and it's just now I have the respect for myself to realize that it is wrong.

SO this is my song:
How do you know, how do you confirm
When it's the end and when to stand firm?
When do you know if it's better or worse?
When will it turn to blessing from curse?
I don't know. I don't know when
To give up or dive in, try more or throw the towel in...
I am exausted, there's more to life than this.
And it's almost time to quit. Not yet, but it's almost time to quit.

Time for a change

I'm used to being helpless, I'm used to being poor.
But I have changed and I don't want it that way any more.
I don't want to be opressed, I don't want to wear these chains!
Was I weak willed or submissive? It's just time for a change.
Sitting here in an open prison, going through the motions.
The doors no longer need to lock- to escape is not a notion.
Something deep inside woke up, something in me stirs,
Telling me that I don't have to live under this curse.
Poor in spirit, I have been; I grow stronger day by day
Help me, Lord, to honor You and walk within Your way.
Help me to seek Your way and not go off on my own,
Please, Lord, give me strength for this and make Your will known,
oh please make Your will known.
Help me to choose Your ways- so much higher than my own.
Oh please make Your will known.

River of Life

I am being pulled by the strong COLD current.
Turned and tossed about, smashed into rocks and carried onward so fast
Barely able to keep the surface close
Searching for air to breathe as I'm swept away
Afraid of what's in the river with me
And what harm that it might cause
What's scary is that I cannot see
What to do to protect myself or avoid the jagged rocks
As the raging river of life carries me on
Oh, coming up, to the left or the right
Do I swim hard for the uphill and windy
Or do I flow with the rest of the world
At a rampant pace to the wide downhill way
Life is going over rocky rapids right now either way I go.
Better start swimming up.
I hope I make it...