RIP JWP

He wasn't there; oh not by choice,
I used to dream he'd hear my voice,
Crying for him and missing my right,
To daily have a father bid me goodnight.

He wasn't there, but I was with him,
Every day, his memory never went dim,
He lived in hope for the ring of the phone,
He lived out his days alone; so alone.

He wasn't there, but then we found,
Each other, and some common ground.
He was there, now anew, he was mine,
There was no making up for lost time...

Oh now he's gone, he's no longer there,
I go back to the loss of ribbons in my hair-
The loss to this world is great, oh my heart,
You are dearly missed, Dad, so soon to depart.

RIP JWP.

Turned to Ash

Tears are drowning my poor heart,
My head is full of ash and dust.
My eyes are dry like desert sand,
His remains remained with us.

I took him for a ride with me,
He never would have gone,
I carried the burden on my back-
This chapter is finally done.

Oh my soul, it's over and done.

Tears

Swallowing tears is poisonous to the soul.
Held inside where they aren't supposed to go.

Pressure builds in the body and makes it sick,
It's a pain in the neck and makes tempers quick.

I don't have time to grieve and cry, so I just press on.
I know I won't be able to keep up this facade for long...

I refuse to cry, I'm not gonna cry, until I am alone,
Only then will I allow the dam to break- all on my own.

Dad

When you were a giant, I listened to you breathe,
I tried to match my breath to yours,

When you were mighty, I wondered at your strength
You lifted me in and out of cars,

When we first spoke, I was amazed at your memory
Every detail was set in stone,

I love you Dad, and I'll always be grateful,
For all the years of love you've shown.

Life and time

The tracks of my tears are slowing time down,
The days roll on at half the pace.
Holding it together as my thoughts go 'round,
I have to remember, this is a race.

Time is fooling me - there's not much left,
It's running out; so much to be done.
Depression bangs on my heart till I'm deaf,
This new perspective weighs a ton.

I will stand up and seek out the best choice-
Above time's pace, life moves on.
I will speak with feigned strength in my voice,
And see this through until it's done.

wildcats

Oh look at the Tiger strut through the grass,
Her long eyelashes and pretty striped ass,
The Lioness lingers just a bit jealously,
Because the Tiger, the Tiger is all they see.

She's beautiful and even the Lioness knows,
That she could never wear stripes like those,
Oh the taunting way the Tiger swishes her tail,
And makes the other wildcats next to her pale.

She is Magnificent, in the jungle so admired,
She makes the other wildcats look old and tired...
There go the boys, panting after her, knowing,
They'll never possess her, glorious and glowing.

Elusive love, You went awry again.
I'll wait, and expect to be surprised.

Once injured, so easily re-injured.
Once broken, so easily detected...

I'm not looking for a project,
I won't complete you at all.

I am a goddess- whole within myself,
Looking for my counter-part.

Each of us moving independently;
Ah and even more beautiful together,

We are both complete the way we are,
But together we will be a masterpiece.

Friends

Laughing, affection, crying, eating, enjoying,
time well-spent though rare... I love my friends.

Heartbreak.

Ah the ferry I wish I could catch- sleep!
But the grief in my heart is too deep, too deep.

From me a river of love flowed strong, so strong,
Oh but as usual 6 months proved me wrong, so wrong.

Now my river is all pain and tears, salty tears,
but I'll remember this one for years... for years.