C-H Family

Oh the joy on your face,
They grow at such a pace,
Before you and I know,
They'll be full grown,
In a blink of an eye,
Graduation'll be nigh,
I'll watch them grow
in still scenes, you know,
That's enough for me,
To see you all so happy!

HOPE!!

There’s light at the end of this dark tunnel,
There’s light at the end, I can see it!
Now only to figure out how far,
How far and if I can reach it…
A week and a day? A lifetime perhaps?
There’s no telling from this circumstance,
But finally I see it, the light at the end,
And I hope I no longer have to pretend
That everything is okay or at least will be,
I can see the light, the point I’ll be free.

Strong Will

I will spite the biting winds with the warmth I share,
I will choose to see what's ahead, ignoring the glare.

Treading ten thousand miles, one step at a time,
I'll get to my destination, without being resigned.

I'll reach that other shore, through shark-infested waters,
Never losing sight of everything that really matters.

A team of wild horse could not weaken my resolve,
This journey I am trekking, the focus being love.

See?

Why is it, that all you choose to see is fog?
I thought it was clear as the cold blue sky,
As clear as the water running in the brook,
In which you could wash your Murky eyes.

Elephant in the Room

High above the cubicles, the shadow’s reach has grown,
The whispers are getting loud around the fear of the unknown…

An elephant suddenly appeared in the middle of the room,
No explanation, no reason given, so the questions only loom.

The employed make speculation in hushed voices, muted tones,
But the questions remain unasked, to avoid making foes.

“Shhhhhh, it’s a secret, shhhhhh, I cannot tell,
You don’t know the answer, and for you, it’s just as well.”

My Treasure

I wear these jewels around my neck,
Beautiful for everyone to see,
These jewels I adamantly protect,
To lose them would be the end of me.

They cut into my heart and make me bleed,
the pain sometimes too much to bear,
My two daughters with their every need,
This burden all mine, the reward so rare...

Yet worth it. Worth the pain, worth the fear,
Worth making mistakes, worth all the tears.

I've done all I can without inkling to cease,
I know that I have given my all and my best,
and with this knowledge, I'll be at peace,
When my two daughters finally lay me to rest.

Empty

Poetry flowed from me in my dream,
but I'm so dry during the day it seems.
Nothing to say, nothing to write,
Writer's block, a spell that's dry.

Beach

The tide is way out today,
The water far off, just smooth wet sand.
Where are the seashells and starfish?
Where are the hungry gulls?
Strange, the beach is long and wide,
Quiet and so very empty today.

Sadness in a Dark Hour

“Never leave me and I promise to help you,”
He whispers as he tries to ease her pain,
She spontaneously bursts into tears
They both know it’s a deal she can’t take.

Things are so different in the black of night.
A different world than the harsh light of day.
He finds the strength to hint what he feels,
She lacks the strength to say anything.

Her pain subsides, and they settle back in,
Next to each other but each one alone still,
Morning light will drown out the darkness as
This chapter in their lives resumes to a close.

Breaking up

Mistakes made and lessons learned,
Lines crossed and bridges burned,
Joy had that we could not sustain,
In its wake: brokenness and pain.

Time to go back to being on our own,
When we began, the risks were known.
It's not all bad; still, a thorn in our side-
And won't get better until we divide.

This Morning

I'm in the room, and it's like I'm not there,
No one sees me, sitting in the next chair.
It's my doing; I'm here, not quite gone,
Good as a ghost that just needs to move on.

No eye contact, and nothing to be said,
Blank expressions that cannot be read,
Broken hearted, I once wanted to stay,
Now we just wait for the time to go away.

Oh sadness in the air, much like a dark cloud,
Plenty to be felt, and nothing said out loud,
Painful, these moments; easier to ignore,
Until the final time I walk out that door.

TWY

Like a whiff of a memory blowing in a breeze,
Like a feeling savored in a fondly lived dream,
The fragrance of the future and of the past,
Lulling the way to a different circumstance.

Matters of the Heart

Like separating the wind from the air,
Or dividing the light from the day,
Deny, deny that these feelings are here,
Keep trying to will them to go away.

Like tearing apart green from grass,
As if you could separate the two,
Choose your memories, deny what's passed,
Lie to yourself, though you know the truth.

It's a band-aid to cover a jugular wound,
A rubber raft to cross the ocean wide,
Sustenance begged from imaginary food.
It adds up to living while dying inside.

The grass looks greener on the other side,
To get over there would mean sacrifice,
Reward there'd be but still more of the same...
I think I'll stay contented right where I am.

unburdened beast

As darkness falls, the shadows creep in,
Why am I to pay for another's sin?

The wrong done to me, thrown in my face,
As the lights go out, my anger ablaze.

Hatred fills my heart so deeply,
I find I'm far from able to sleep.



It is night, and the beast walks free,
Likely on another killing spree,
Blood dried on his evil claws,
Shaking off guilt, he hasn't pause.


The killer walks free, what at thing,
Twisted, snarling snout, he's king,
He gets away with everything...
And it's his victims who silently pay.

Faith

The wineskins have burst; the ground covered in red.
The patches sewn into the cloth have all torn away.
God’s justice neutralized by the sacrifice of His Son,
And man’s justice twisted so the victims have to pay.

In this world, the lion surely lies down with the lamb,
After ripping it to shreds just for the desire to kill.
I’m told to be a good faithful one and suffer this pain,
Lay here bleeding and trust it’s God’s sovereign will.

I am only one blade of grass in this vast field of life,
I know much better than to shake my fist at the sky.
With my faith broken, butchered out; my conclusion-
Mistaken were all my beliefs about the Great Divine.

Destructive Vines

The lattice is strong, but the vines work together,

The tendrils reach out, grasping and winding tightly

The structure finds detriment when overwhelmed,

As the vines cling and climb and weigh it down.

Slowly, steadily, before anyone realizes it,

The innocent-looking plant blocks out the light

And chokes out any of the hope trying to grow…

Feeding off the tears falling down to the roots.

The vines infiltrate, widening cracks and crevices,

It must be delicately removed, killed and cut away.

Its signature remains on the lattice, now scarred.

Wild, the vines will never let up on raging new attacks.

Lunar Light

I walk along the sand, considering the moon,
The power with which it pulls the tides…
The ever-present cycle of dark to complete,
The light that reflects brightly off the water.

I no longer hold the cycle of the moon,
But the tides still pull, if not stronger.
The moon still swells from new to full,
Nine cycles long only buried deep…

Joy x 2, hidden away and increasing
The moon shines only on them for now,
Another’s treasure hidden in my womb-
Turning their tides and lighting their night.

Soaked

Rain of sadness falls upon me,
Hits my back, piercing through.
Hope is the umbrella I opened,
But I don’t think it will do.

I tried the raincoat of self-deceit,
Oh the pain reaches me still.
Self-deceit only increased it,
And doesn’t keep out the chill.

Rain is falling, soaking my heart,
Pretty soon I’ll be waist-deep.
Tied down by a thousand threads,
Looking around, I try not to weep.

The one to free me- bound in chains,
As revealed to me today,
I sit here wondering what to do-
Held down by my reasons to stay.

No-man’s land- are we headed north or south?
The sun’s covered up, confusion sealed by clouds.
What to do but strive for our goals with hope?
All the while waiting for the end of the rope…

Ah it’s no fun traveling through no-man’s land.
Rarely a sure step, treading through dry sand.
Still the goal is there, and well worth the reward,
So I’ll push on with hope and keep moving forward.