Goddess of the stars

The stars shooting across the sky,
The reflection I see in your eyes,
The warm wind surrounding our embrace,
Moonlight reveals your smiling face…

Sparks fly and the worlds collide,
Oh the passion would not be denied.
Way out here, the world is ours.
I am your goddess of the stars…

fire

Where did it come from? he asks with a kiss
The fire behind the sparks between,
It’s always been there, she replies,
There’s nothing here but you and me.

The fire burns upon the sun,
Unstoppable, inconsumable, ever hot.
Mmm just being near those arms…
I felt the solar flares within…

I’ll walk alone upon the moon…
Though the heat is what I desire.
The stars must align for us.
Only then can we enjoy our fire.

Romance

Three parts attraction,
Two parts timing,
Two parts mindful pace,
Three parts compatibility...

Go out and shake it together,
Stir occasionally at a metered pace.
Warm over good conversation,
Take your time, give it patience,
Take it slow and don't get burned.

Just Friends

We have reached the top; good as it gets.
Seen from two different perspectives-
The glass that is half full or half empty,
Mocks, fulfilling none. It's not enough.

My heart beats opposite yours,
I have too much and you have loss,
I am bursting while you are dry.
Is it better to be too full or empty?

My heart, the photographic negative,
Exactly the same, only different.
Though bursting, I can't fill yours,
Though dry, you can't relieve mine.

Time to just cut off the flow. sigh.
Though we shall stay connected.
Back to neutral, between joy and pain.
Freedom and peace- just friends.

Dream

In anticipation, I wait for you,
Waiting for when you come to me,
the thrill of the thought almost too much,
Intense desire for you; desire for US.

In restless dreams you know my name
You call me by name and invade
Moving as you please, dominate...
I'll submit, I am your sweet slave-

My pleasure; what ever your desire,
TAKE, take what ever you want.
I'm yours, yours alone and complete.
Pandoras box thrown open- hear me,

Hear me cry out in sheer ecstacy...
Sensual chocolate, Erotic spice.
Anticipation savored, but eventually-
We will devour, and then caress; satisfied.

Stuck between the day and the night,
Pulled each way by heart and mind,
No co-existing with light and dark,
And you can't actually grasp either.

Floating between sky and ground
Pondering former natural law
Weightlessness and elements,
Communication strong, no words

A fine line divides sleep and awake
Stretching my being taut and thin
Then twisted and twirled and bound.
Shouting whispers I wake; perplexed.

Self Deceit

I hear my heartbeat in my head

Like footsteps on the sand.

I know well my self deceit,

It washes up on land.



Cold, and it tastes like tears,

I stuff it down; say, "die."

The mirror image of my joy

So far yet shadowed nigh.



I squint my eyes against the light

That which invades my head,

I taste the truth and swallow it-

Wishing it were dead.



I hear the footprints in the sand,

Of times future and past,

I know my own self deceit,

And I know it cannot last.

Sweet moonlight.

Raging along at a quickened pace,
My thoughts and frustrations I try to outrace,
Working them out in the warm evening air,
Over my head, the streetlights glare.

Concentrating as my feet hit the ground,
heightened awareness, I feel my heart pound,
The sweat on my back as my body heats,
The length of my stride as I cross the streets...

I round a corner, catch sight of the moon,
I feel the breeze as my mind plays a tune,
My pace slows and I smell the green grass
I no longer feel the need to move fast.

The light of the moon in a darkened sky,
So beautiful I stopped to sigh,
I noted the wonderful things all around,
And headed home with the peace I found.

Hot Date

Oh a pretty shiny shell,
closed up nice and tight,
A very handsome man
wants to take me out tonight.

A crustacean hard and strong,
Can protect against the tide,
But it's nothing wonderful
If it's already dead inside.

On the Water

We each have control of our own little boat,
We take on the waves, and we each stay afloat.
We paddle around, heading here, going there...
We bob on the water as a floating pair.

Holding each other's boat, we ponder life,
Waves strike us- reality cuts in like a knife.
Our two boats together- I look in your eyes.
Our lives are like this moment, I realize.

Together here, we've less chance to go under,
But we'll go nowhere holding onto each other.
We have to be free to paddle and propel,
To move forward; to feel like we're getting somewhere.

So true companions on life's water we are,
But if we are too attached, we won't go far.
We'll be there for each other as loving friends,
Enjoying one another as much as life lends.

Weather

I see the sunshine but it's so far off,
The rain here smatters my face.
I see the sun rays behind dark clouds,
Surreal- like I'm in a strange place.

I have the light; family and friends-
My health and my children too...
Oh I have darkness- and it pours down,
The rain of what makes me blue.

I feel the rain on my hair and skin,
And I know that I'm alive,
The sun is bigger than all the clouds,
This is the lesson I derive:

When sun and rain combine
and the wind begins to blow-
Look around and search for beauty-
Seek and find the rainbow.

Timing

I still remember that kiss on my lips,

I can still smell your cologne and skin.

You arms held me in a gentle grip...

Is the timing right? Has it ever been?



A refreshing light shone on your face,

Mmm caught my eye like never before-

And I wondered as I sat in my place

How much you and I might explore...



Or if it's too late; if that spark is gone,

My secret revealed- it was always there

But maybe we aren't meant to belong...

Has all we've been through led us here?



Will your heart be forever set on her?

If so, respectfully I wish you the best!

I'll still admire you as a friend for sure.

And always hope you two are blessed...

I know the danger in playing with fire,

You’ve always been fasinating to me.

I’ve been addicted to you in the past,

I convinced myself that I was free…

I enjoyed being captive and sometimes dream,

That things may have gone differently

Still the memories I have are treasures,

Kept only for us- kept hidden within me.

I buried the fire, and thought it was out,

As I tranced into the forest to explore,

Little did I know, that there stayed a glow

And a spark flew up and surprised me…

That’s all.

This Moment

Can't live in the past, no bell can be unrung.
No more thinking on what can't be undone.

Spent too much energy on hopes for the future.
An epiphony hits me as I develop and mature.

Time is life's bank account, each moment- currency
We determine how we spend- if we're poor or wealthy.

I choose to live the present, before the moment is gone.
I'll spend wisely and live in the now- it's where I belong.

Freedom in Friendship...

Take me as I am; this is just me.

And be as you are- please, be free.

I'd rather have you; quality and faults

What's good, what's not- I want it all.



What I don't want is to hide anything

I don't want the lies that hiding brings.

I want it all now, right up front

No sugar coating, please be blunt.



This is me; what you see's what you get.

I'll be open because I refuse to fret-

What will she say, what will he think-

It's all a waste of my sweet energy.



This is me; the good and the bad.

Be my friend anyway, I'll be glad,

Let me go, that's okay too-

I'll afford the same respect to you.



Be as you are when we hang out,

I promise not to judge or doubt.

We are who we are- right or wrong,

Being free makes our friendship strong.

Heart's Doing Time

My heart is in a cage; I will not let it out.
It needs to stay locked up, I have no doubt.

Last time I let it go, it ran wild and crazy,
It broke into pieces 'cause I let it run free.

I didn't know the damage it could do-

A danger to itself and others too-

My heart is in a cage and there it will stay-
It needs time to heal- much time away.

After I've had time to make my heart tame,
After it mends and heals from this pain-

I'll let my guard down and set it free-
Until then, locked up safe in a cage it'll be.

Unreciprocated Energy Saved...

When you asked; my heart jumped in my chest,
I know the right answer but I want to say yes,
I’m writing this to you, but I don’t know why,
The typical ending is a disappointed sigh…

I’m done giving that kind of love away,
I have to remember- today’s a new day…
Not to reject you but I must answer no.
Down that road again, I will not go.

You give your best and they just take,

Hoping you won’t realize and wake:

It’s never how they said it would be,

They always pledge the best, you see-

But it never happens; the lesson is learned

As your heart- once again, heart gets burned,

Listen up, all you boys and girls-

Don't feed to the pigs your pearls.


They work to see how much you'll give,

They take from you if you're not selective,

Speaking promises and then renege,

Children, don't cast your pearls to pigs.

Oh all the good things they imply,

You can be sure it's a sham; a lie,

Sooner or later they'll give up the jig-

I've learned- don't cast your pearls to pigs.

Purple Velvet Satchel

My hands are full with the shards of my heart,
It breaks a little more as I try to speak…
With good intentions you embrace my arms,
The pieces fall again- tears wet my cheeks.


I drop to the floor on my hands and knees
This is me hurting and trying to heal.
Embarrassed, I begin to pick up my heart.
I’m still in shock; I don’t know how to feel.


Big pieces down to tiny- all over the ground.
Weeping, I pick them up one by one.
Wondering how this will ever get better-
I collect every piece and look up when I’m done.


I lift some Philia love up to the light,
Find a morsel of companionship- though fragile-
A few gems of caring and understanding...
And I put them into a purple velvet satchel.


I’ll keep the pretty piece of Eros love,
And the little bits of romance too,
I put my heart pieces aside for later,
and give the little satchel to you.


That satchel contains a delicate treasure-
I’ve picked out the most lasting part-
My friendship wrapped in soft purple velvet
Wear it- keep it close to your heart.

Oh I'm in deep- I just jumped right in.

The only constant is the swirling and tossing

One moment I barely get my bearings,

And the very next moment I get smashed.

Can't breath under the water but-

Under there I'm not pelted by the hail

or hell...